聖誕節快樂

忘了補一句

聖誕節快樂
2008年要來了

開開心心就好了

今年的聖誕節也沒甚麼特別
即使是平安夜也特別平安
今天就如平常放假一樣
睡到下午才爬起身來
然後就出去找朋友一下
再下去茨廠街找我家人
醬又一天過去了

很想表達的是
我的日子越來越平淡了
沒有起伏的波浪
讓日子非常平靜安寧
可是平靜安寧的同時
生活上就缺乏了色彩
顯得有點枯萎了

現在的我
依然麻木的尋找自己的出路
因為十五十六的心依然存在
只是現在我延長了限期
讓自己不要在那壓力下活下去

開開心心就好了
對不對~!!!???

15 / 16

我回來了
消失了一個星期
去了Batu Pahat 一趟
帶著很多東西回來
帶著一個輝煌的成績
帶著一個顧慮的心情
帶著一個已經準備離去的心情
帶著一個失望的心情
帶著一個絕望的思想
帶著一個左右不定的步伐
帶著一個不再忠的心
回到了幸福花園的家裡
發現了一袋煩惱
也發現了一袋憂慮
同時也無意中發現了一袋準備離去的行李

很想說．．．
我已經無法好像開始般的集中
時間越久
看到的東西更多
看到的東西更多
顧慮就更多
顧慮多了
煩惱就很多
煩惱多了
思想就會逐漸改變
思想改變了
所謂的Negatives就會出現了
一旦Negatives出現了
人的心就會變化
當心出現變化了
已經是準備離去的時候了

我知道現在我有的是龐大的機會
唯一需要等的就是時機
時機也就是時間加機會的合体

我的心原本是十一十二的
可是當我無意中發現了某種東西
我的心馬上變成十五十六了
再這樣想下去
很快這會變成十九二十

我不懂有沒有人看的懂我在寫甚麼

總結:
我現在活在灰色天空下
不懂的會是下雨或是晴天
又或者是夜晚．．．

度懶當中......

逞強
一路以來是我在做的事情
可是今天
逞強讓我看清楚某些事件

真真認識張力耀的人都應該懂的
張力耀最討厭被人利用
今天,
不!是昨天晚上
我發現了
我被一個我當作是朋友和工作夥伴的人利用
利用我對某人的感情
利用我對某人的親情
利用我對某人的犧牲
利用我對某人的愛戴
利用我對某人的尊重
利用我對某人的信用
利用我對某人的交情
做了一些違背良心的事情

對,
我承認...
平時那對我來說可能是一些小事情
可是如果你利用我
但是你做到了你應該做的
你遵守你的諾言
那我會毫不介意
可是最令我度懶的是..
你不懂沒有遵守諾言
還一直找一些無謂的藉口
一直在演一些一去就穿幫的戲兒
一直在拖延應該去承擔的東西
而且還讓我發覺在利用我和某人建立起來的一切
這個足以讓我反感.

真的很想罵一句
"他媽的臭XX"

fxxk off.....

人可真是複雜

很多時候
想做自己要做的事情
可是往往時間不允許
當時間允許時
心情又不在
人可真是複雜

現在 : 專注在我的事業上

一封弟弟寫給姊姊的最後情信

結果
我被判死刑
雖然是死刑
可是我一點難過也沒有
只是有點捨不得

我開口告訴她
我預料會被否決
所以今天早上
我已下定決心要放棄
我必須從新來過
我必須從新集中

謝謝妳讓我愛過妳
我很享受愛妳的過程
即使失敗
我也沒有後悔過
我知道我沒那個能力打動妳的心
我唯有捨棄那痛苦的掙扎
讓愛情轉換為一種比友情更深的感情
我稱它為親情

或許現階段姐弟是最適合
我知道建立一份感情不容易
感謝一路以來的寬容
讓我成功愛上了妳
也讓我知道真正的愛情並不容易
相信我倆一起建立的感情
會永久
最後一次說
"我愛妳"















一封弟弟寫給姊姊的最後情信
宣告愛情不成立的同時
讓親情出現在彼此的世界裡
溫暖彼此的心里

Break Down

Today is my first time having a car breakdown middle of a highway

But is not my car

Is TM's car.

It is actually an adventure.

We was thinking that the car should be able to reach Kelana Jaya HQ,

since we was having the first breakdown before Sungai Besi Tol,

Finally we can't...

We stopped before we pass by the Damansara Tol nearby Eastin Hotel.

These are the scene i snapped when the time I am waiting for someone else to pick us up.

A Drinking Night

#Top# *Ala and me, Zoe try to join in, but too slow* #Bottom# *Retake the photo....Yeahhh......~!! *


#Top# *Zoe and me...* #Bottom# *me and Young*

Yesterday night i went out for a drink,

Guess what,

Is a long time i din drink so much of beer,

Actually i dont like beer so much,

But since I am not the organiser,

So just follow people,

Although is a "beer" night,

I have a lotz of fun,

Drinking is the only way to relax without thinking anything office work.

Unfortunately we are not in a club,

If not dancing will make me HIGH.

First round i have been to Joints in Sunway,

We are saying that is Nevcorp team night,

with an Outsider from Creative-KT, and that's me!!!

Seriously,

I prefer to hang out with this guys,

because they can drink and they can play around,

somemore they can dance.

We never talk about anything related to work.

What we talk about??

Fun things, Boys and Girls relationship,

of cox when talk about boys and girls,

we can't avoid from talking bout sex....lol...

Somemore we are "criticising" each other,

taking each other as a joking tool....XD

Second round we went to MJ De Cafe in Tropicana,

having beer as well, with extra people,

Get to know some of the Indian friends,

they are nice men~~~

But the thing is....

They can drink alotz, but the face never show DRUNK...

swt....

Second round i did drink around 7 to 8 bottles,

and stay till 5.45am.

I reached home around 6am,

and I skipped work for today.

Caused i really can't stand for it.

我雖然昨晚想告訴她

可是始終沒機會開口

我知道她把我當成弟弟的機會

會比把我當成愛人的機會大

可是我覺得我是時候決定

防守 或 放手

我已經無法集中任何東西了

解決這個問題才能讓我重新回到軌道上

即使會難過也必須面對吧!

逃避已不是辦法了....

即使失敗,愛著她也是一種幸福啊~~

對不對?!?

放棄? 不放棄?

今天早上
突然想了一大堆的無聊問題
突然有種意念
"我很想放棄!"

我在催眠自己放棄
可是我同時間又在平衡
自己付出了那麼多
如果現在放棄
那我即不是前功盡廢了嗎?
可是如果我不放棄
我自己會陷入掙扎狀態
完全不能集中在事業,友情和親情
那我就可能一事無成了

只是即使我多麼去想
自動關心和擁護已經好像成為了一種習慣
到了某時某分
我會自動自發拿起手機
按下短訊
告訴她我已經到家了
等下可以去接她陪她回來
或者陪她吃晚餐

我即使嘗試花點心機在別人身上
可是也不能轉移她的魔力
我想我已經完全陶醉在這個遊戲陷阱裡面了
即使身在危險
我想我會毫不放棄
即使被恨恨的耍
我想我會毫不埋怨

結論就是
我還不知道自己該不該放棄
即使我知道外界認為我應該
可是我也不願意那麼樣就放棄她

心情歌詞20071127 : 曹格 - 左右無緣

曹格 - 左右無緣


今晚 懷疑又與你撞見
可惜 霓虹在剎那停電
恐怕 明明重遇再見
仍然持續斷線
至死都不碰見

傾側 全城在探索伏線
可惜 浮城未見你浮現
只怪 環遊時代數遍
環遊無盡旅店
你總走得快半點

交叉點差得太遠
城內互相兜圈
提早半秒 遲多半秒
遲早怎麼計算

每次當我直去當你右轉總不可相遇
彼此世界咫尺天涯同留下半生緣
與你相距就算不夠六吋但命運很遠
每個路段 相差幾吋 還憑甚麼抱怨

猜測 繁榮鬧市你路過
火車 懷疑是與你同坐
不過 途人迎面蓋過
無從凝視你我 碰到的都錯過

尖東 人潮在聖誕直播
推測 人潮內有你同賀
給我 全場人類見過
原來還是錯過
眷戀還是錯過
眷戀只不過錯摸

差一點差得更遠
原地又兜一圈
同一店舖 同一市鎮
何解相差太遠

每次當我直去當你右轉總不可相遇
彼此世界咫尺天涯同留下半生緣
與你相距就算不夠六吋但命運很遠
每個路段 相差幾吋 還憑甚麼抱怨

如抬頭看到你
同一天空背景
遙遠得很 都一樣看星

當我右轉當你直去差一些相遇
彼此錯配曲折迂迴流浪裡生存
永遠差距六吋這個六吋令願望很遠
每個路段 相差幾吋 離緣份太遙遠
(每個路段 相差幾吋 遙遙幻想自戀)

被罵了....

2007年11月25日
傍晚7點08分

我第一次被她罵
即使是用一封簡短的短訊
我突然覺得很不自在

對不起
是我的錯
可是我不懂該不該道歉
應該我記得你說過
不准我說對不起
可是這次真的我錯


原來兩個人心情不好的時候
可以鬧出這樣的悲劇
等下不懂會不會再一次被罵呢?

突然心情十分"下"
啊彌陀佛.......

不能說的秘密,還是說不出口的秘密???

總於看完了一套很想看的戲

可是正當故事進入高潮時

卻發生一些我再次不想看到的事情

或許是胡思亂想

只是我無法避免去想像

原本打算看完了去睡覺

可是我現在應該不會睡吧...

如果我能夠像戲中的葉湘倫一樣多好

即使是二十年前也不會介意

無可否認

這套戲真的很感動

可是卻感動在不適合的時候

或許我應該重看一次

我失去那份感動

即使麻木了

也保留那份真誠

可是有誰會懂

很想像路小雨一樣

在二十年前

在桌子上寫下要表達的話

然後讓後來看到的葉湘倫後悔

那怕這已不在是一個秘密

可是這個事情

絕對對我來說

是一個

不能說的秘密

不~!!!

是一個

說不出口的秘密

就像路小雨無法對葉湘倫說出那一個穿梭二十年的故事一樣

成為了一個不能說的秘密,

也成為了一個說不出口的秘密!!!

用心良苦???

用心良苦有誰懂

即使懂

也可能假裝不懂

用心良苦用甚麼用

即使有用

也可能前功盡廢

用心良苦定義是甚麼

即使有定義

也不代表會達到定義

Invitation

BMW Shorties screening at HELP University College

BMW Malaysia in collaboration with Kelab Seni Filem Malaysia and HELP University College will be screening a selection non-finalist BMW Shorties films on the 30th of November 2007.

Touted as a competition with a difference, the BMW Shorties is a short film competition that has galvanized aspiring cinematic talents in Malaysia towards producing quality films. This will be an opportunity for you not only to witness your film being screened to the general public, but also an excellent opportunity to which you can interact with respected professionals from the Malaysian film industry.

Date : 30th November 2007
Time : 7.00pm – 10.00pm
Venue : HELP University College Theatrette









p/s : donnu my film will appear on that day or not....hmmmmm

sudden thinking....

i just suddenly think about this when the time i was taking shower just now

Why don't a person who know he/she is going to die commit in suicide? Since he or she know that Azrael is coming to take him/her away. Why don't just die earlier to avoid himself/herself thinking too much of things?

Then i came out with an answer myself : Because he/she might waiting for miracle coming, or he/she just not willing to accept his/her life is going to end soon.

Back to my personal life, i know myself is going to end. But i still continue with it, because is just i not willing to accept it as an ending like that. I am waiting for miracle as well.

But the point is, WHEN??? and will miracle appear???

fact? NO plss

I am just sad to hear that

although i know that is a truth

and i know that since long time

but is just i don wan to accept it as a fact

你最爱的 往往不是与你共度一生的人

" 你最爱的 往往不是与你共度一生的人 "

這個我在LiJing的MSN看到的
突然有感而發
借來用一下

simply story plot for today

Now

Mood: A little bit happy but confuse

Location: Somewhere around Malaysia

Time: Sometime not having the sun in the sky

Character: the J and someone else =>

Why: Is just something relating to someone else =>

Incident: (is there any?? XD) i just have a nice but short chat...easy satisfied XD

Nothing much happen today, is just that i am a little bit happy, but still don't dare to close. >.<



DONE


-the eNd-


Theme Song: (serious got no idea what theme song shall i put =P)

崩潰

"这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给"

這是周傑倫-我不配裡頭的副歌部分
我真的開始覺得感覺不對了

一通電話就可以令我感覺不一樣了
我給了我應該給的體貼
可是
得到的就是不理不睬
冷冷淡淡的回應
有種敷衍的感覺

我真的覺得很失望
也覺得自己很失敗
無倫我做甚麼
都好像沒有用
即使我多麼努力
即使我多麼遷就
我得到的依然可能是個零

事到如今
我知道自己必須停下來
冷靜分析自己所做了的一切
我即使多麼不想放棄
可是我不能在這樣下去
因為這樣下去的結果
90巴仙會是
我會崩潰

可是我做不到放棄她
我根本就不可能放下她
我想利用多去關丹的一個星期
試著放棄她
可是現在我連要去關丹的勇氣都沒有
因為我的心始終以她為主

當然在她眼裡我應該過去做工
可是她根本不知道我捨不得她

對!
我知道這可能會很小孩子
可是愛上一個人就是這樣
我選擇了這條路
我就預料會到這一步

或許當初應該像朋友昨天所說的
"不要做自己不肯定的事情,
只要不是一百巴仙肯定的,
都不要完完全全付出一切"

這場遊戲可以玩到何時
應該還是一個未知數
可是我知道是時候按下停頓鍵(PAUSE)
但
我沒那個勇氣去按下.................................

總於派上用場了...........................

http://jamesonchong.blogspot.com/2007/10/for-someone-else-again.html

這個是我在差不多一個月前
在朋友的MSN看到的一句話
現在我從新看到那句話
可是我把它修改了

從
""其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈，可每当有陌生男人和你接触时 ，他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁，那是因为他在乎你……""

改成
"其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈，可每当有熟悉男人和你交談或溝通时 ，他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁，那是因为他在乎你……"

這句話在這個時候剛剛好可以派上用場
我現在就是這樣的心情
我看到了不想看到的情景
即使我心中對自己說這沒有東西的
即使我自己也知道真的沒有東西的
可是就是那個心裡作怪
會去胡思亂想

我是犯賤嗎?

一連三的風波

我現在很想一個人冷靜下來
從新分析自己已經做了的,現在做著的,還有未來的計畫
原來我發覺我自己已經涉及在一些我們所謂的"公司政治"

不懂為甚麼
愛著一個人
可以豪不自覺的涉及很多無聊的東西
某些事情已經幾乎被公告天下了
突然在聽到一些因為這件事情而產生的誤會
(雖然我老早已經懂了)
而且是從第三者再次聽到這個誤會
我的心突然有一種不是滋味

我現在很想開始保持距離
可是我又害怕失去一切
即使是近水樓臺先得月

所以我現在唯一可以做的就是
儘快把她變成我的女朋友 XD
可是我絞盡腦汁也想不到對策

我不想在被這一連三的風波騷擾到我
可是自己卻放不下一切

看來我需要一些冷靜
冷靜思考一下
接下來我該如何是好

留言

我害怕被利用罷了

可是我又不捨的放棄

我害怕沒有機會

可是我又不敢開口表達

我害怕失去那種感覺

所以現在唯有靜靜的

默默的看著她

然後心裡默默的說

"我愛妳"

::優越地區::

心情歌詞20071112 : 周杰伦 - 我不配

Jay Chou 周杰伦 - 我不配 Wo Bu Pei

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去

这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

矛盾的角度

很多東西在我的角度看下去
完全覺得這是百分百完美
可是當你嘗試跳出自己的角度
站在別人的角度看
你可能會發覺原來別人眼中看到的
並不是想像中完美
並不是看到你想要表達的結果
當別人發表他們的想法
你往往會發現百分百完美的事情
就會如別人所說的那樣

如果那是好的想法
那還好
可是如果那個是完全相反
在你眼中你根本不希望發生的事情
卻看在別人的眼里
我會很想開始知道問題的所在了
可是很多問題不是一瞬間,
一個人可以單獨解決的

現在我的問題來了
我不懂是想太多還是怎樣
問題在我的角度來看根本就不是一個問題
可是站在第三者的角度
這個的確是一種問題
矛盾就在這裡
到底要堅信自己的看法
還是要試著研究別人的角度呢???

sudden phrase XD

i just donnu why i will post this

is just suddenly think out this phrase:

Jam in LoveZ

cool rite??? XD

how ppl will jam in love??

haha...

Let me think about it....

hmmmm......

i just cant stop it

i just donnu why

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

i just can't stop it

^^

我也悶悶不樂

不懂為甚麼
這幾天
她總是悶悶不樂
我和她的話題也沒有多少
即使同一屋簷下
也沒有多少的溝通
和我當初的幻想完全不一樣
我現在不知所措
再加上
某些事情完全已經不在我的掌控之中
我無法想到對策來解決這個問題
我不想這次胎死腹中
我很想開花結果
可是就是事實和想像中不一樣
事實往往比想像中來的殘酷
我害怕我接受不了
加上我沒有勇氣踏出第一步
這樣更加讓我完完全全被掌控
天啊
這樣不會很辛苦嗎???
可是我能怎樣呢???

就連現在的我
也變的悶悶不樂了
唉~~~

家庭主"夫"之日

這個是昨天晚上在AMPANG的TESCO買的東西

應該沒有人會相信

我竟然可以墮落到去買家庭用具

天啊

我終於知道擔當起一頭家不是一件簡單的事

在前幾個星期已經買了一次家庭用具

加上家俬

我已經用盡了我的身家

我的媽呀~~~

不過我竟然是出自於心甘情願

因為畢竟可以某人住在一起

哈哈

加上現在真的很累

因為我今天當上了家庭主"夫"

單單打掃某人和我的房間

幾乎吃掉了我半條人命

不過還是一樣

出自於心甘情願

而且還很快樂

或許這就是人生

付出一定會得到代價

可是代價是正面的還是負面的

暫時自己也無法預料

今天

2007年11月3號

張力耀第一次擔當家務

包括掃地,抹地,洗廁所

不過幸虧有新搬來的housemate幫忙一下

不然或許這篇文章不會出現了

轉彎

如果生命能夠常轉彎
或許死去的人不會那麼多

如果生命能夠常轉彎
或許煩惱的人會大大減少

只是人生又有幾何可以讓你轉彎呢?
坎坷的人生如果不充滿障礙
人的成熟度就不會因為世界的發展而提升

可是如果讓我選擇
我寧可選擇不轉彎
因為我堅持自己的一切
只是堅持的當時
也為自己的付出而嘆息
嘆息的不是因為付出太多
嘆息是因為害怕得到的結果不是想像中那樣

就像現在的張力耀
選擇專注在事業上
可是遇到了一段未知數的愛情
也漸漸的慢慢付出所有
以前的堅持好像都不見了
失去重心
找不回自己了

可是一路走來
出現了幾個轉彎點
可是張力耀選擇直直走下去
因為張力耀相信
只要堅持
終點一定有自己要的東西

問題來了
我能走到終點嗎?
馬兒會來陪伴我走過這一段路嗎???

Just read from Lijing's blog
which Lijing copied from Dionn.
It is true..haha

Unexpected my life will be this...

Realized >.<

Name: Jameson
Date: 10/28/2007
Colorgenics Number: 46153027


It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

At times all of us would like to be like the ostrich - to be able to bury our heads in the sand and let the rest of the world go by, but unfortunately you can't do just that - you have to face up to reality. A little peace and quiet would be most acceptable at this time but if only one could turn a blind eye to the problems of the day! Tomorrow is another day and who knows, it could be 'today' (not tomorrow) that could be the first day of the rest of your life!

From every direction there appear to be unwarranted restrictions on your freedom of action and this is producing considerable stress. You're really looking for independence and freedom from any restriction and therefore avoiding any obligations or anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressures and you would like nothing better than to escape from them but you tend to lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this. Whichever way you turn you are being frustrated. You need to be free to do your 'thing' in your own way.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

Source from: http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

心情歌詞20071028 : Let Me Love You - Mario

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are, you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fistful of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Let me love you that's all you need baby

now...

Now
28th October 2007
01:22am

NOT IN MOOD
VERY VERY DOWN
WHAT CAN I DO?

haizzz

煩惱

不懂發生甚麼事情的人
或許認為我最近會很不開心
其實我很想知道
不開心和煩惱可以定義在一起嗎?
我又可以如何區分不開心和煩惱呢?

我其實沒有不開心
只是最近比較煩惱
至於甚麼煩惱
不想在這裡講先

就只有煩惱罷了
可是誰能為我打開這個心結呢?
或許只有一匹馬吧
^^

Not really in the mood

Not Really In The Mood

Did I say something wrong?

Or is just i think too much?

for someone else again

just show this from one of my friend's msn personal message.
it is something in my heart too.

"其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈，可每当有陌生男人和你接触时 ，他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁，那是因为他在乎你……"

a message to someone

i cant let myself to stuck in this way anymore

i shall concerntrate

i cant let it make me down

i want to find back my way

but i will still continue

i will never give up on

trust me

i am willin to do anything u wan

hope that u don mind i am smaller than you

i just don wanna be a small kid...

trust me,

and give me a chance to prove to you

and show you

心情歌詞20071018 : 普通朋友 - 陶喆

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变(what can i do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
i only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
so i
我不能只是be your friend
i just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

I MISS THAT DAY

i pass by the same place

suddenly

I MISS THAT DAY

VERY VERY MUCH

unforgetable memory

although it might nothing for others

i hope that "someone" understand me.

i donnu what decision i can make
i donnu what result i will get
i donnu whether this will become posible or not
i donnu whether this is the right way or not

i am totally lost in somewhere else
which look familiar to me
but actually i donnu where is it

OMG...
cant scream for SOS,
cant cool down myself,
cant even think how to solve this things.

Never think that i will fall in this situation
Never think that i can be so silly at all
Never think about whether is this a trap or what
Never think about whether is this worth to do or not

again
instinct pointed me to this
is neither a choice nor an option
it sound like compulsory to do

but the main problem is,
i am stucked half way,
influenced by myself
influenced by enviroment

no matter how good am i
no matter how i show out myself
it look like i am going to be a failure again
it sound like i am being a stupid fool again

but just donnu why
i am willing to do
although it might not successful
although the outcome will be zero

the only wish is
i get something back at last
i get what i hope to get
i hope that "someone" understand me.

That's all.

Afraid-ing? Maybe....

i donnu whether there will be a chance or not,
but what i think i should give a try,
although instinct told me that i am a failure this time,
just donnu why i wanna keep a try.
i have a bet,
not only with myself,
with everything i have, and i wish to have
i am SHOWING HAND.
(it sounds like i am playing poker now)

When the time will come?
i don't want to think bout it.
Just know that i am afraid to see what i dont hope to see.

pOST for fun

found in LOST...

but still LOST

lolzz...

what a fun POST..

=P

i hope....

我多么想SEAN讲的那句话是事实
而不是幻想而已

i Hope that what Sean said is a truth in real life.

i am coming towards to thissss.....

I am spending the whole day
doing the things i hope i can do.
There is another target to archieve
towards the target-ING.

miss the time a lot.
Hope timeframe can reverse back,
and freeze.

My dream and my goal,
I AM COMING...
please wait me..
i will show you everything.

Is there a chance for me??

hmmm.....

moVeD!

hoho

I AM MOVED..
Moved to a new house...

hahaha...

I am happy to move..


YYEAHHHHH~~~!!!

is HARI RAYA time..~!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA PUASA kepada suma Malaysian yang menyambut.

Happy Hari Raya to all the Malaysian who celebrate it.

恭賀馬來西亞同胞開齊節快樂~!!!

Connection

不同世界 ---> 路人甲 ---> 相遇 ---> 朋友 ---> 好朋友? ---> 知己? ---> 情侶??

Different World ---> Pass-by ---> Meet up ---> Friend ---> Best Friend? ---> Buddy? ---> Couple??

左右為難

我害怕
太過緊張會讓我失去一切
可是我又怕
如果我不這樣
內心會一直不安

怎麼辦
左右為難
唉...

我希望 - I Hope

我希望年齡不是咱們的絆腳石
我希望距離將把我們拉近
我希望現在每時每刻我可以擁護你
我希望你看得到我的誠意
我希望你可以接受我可以克服的難關

你呢?

I hope that age is not a problem for us.
I hope that distance will pull us nearer.
I hope that I can be with you all the time.
I hope that you can feel my sincere.
I hope that you can accept the problem which I can handle it.

How about you?

Plain White T - Hey There Delilah

Lyrics

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

Oh oh
OOOoohhhh
Oh oh
Ooooooohhhhh
Oh Oh
OOOoohhhh
OOOOooohhhhh
Oh Oh

小叮噹的左右

小叮噹的口袋
到底裝著歡喜,
還是悲傷呢???

我很想成為歡喜的小叮噹..
可是猶豫的當兒,
我卻是充滿憂鬱的小叮噹...

怎麼那樣呢???

一點難過
一點傷心
一點失望
一點悲哀

怎麼辦?
怎麼如意算盤打不響?
怎麼那樣呢???

Official Thank You Speech

Ladies and Gentleman, Tuan-tuan dan puan puan sekaian,

First of all, i would like to thanks to all the people who send their greetings to me, no matter through SMS, Friendster, MSN, Phone Call. Thanks a million because of still remember my birthday. Haha, finally my turn to say goodbye to the "1" world, and say hi to the "2" generation. Does it sound older?? Erm...let me think about it.

By the way, list down some of the people i want to thanks..

- Ping Ping Auntie
- Daddy and Mummy
- Brother
- Justin and wife XD
- Meifen and husband XD
- Seok Yong
- Thomas
- Mann Mann
- Likeat
- Tracy
- Zoe Lim Ai Hooi
- Phoebe
- Wei Yung
- Clarance
- Ed @ Manyin (i donnu when these two fellow was combined)
- QQBelut Manyin
- LiJing
- Zoe Beh a.k.a Doraemon =P

This year was quite a special birthday for me. Guess wat, my mum call me at that nite, and i think she purposely pass the phone to my dad. And is the first time i heard my dad greet me Happy Birthday. Oh my god...the feel was....undescribable...lolz..abit GELi...hahaha

Ok...i need to have a good rest..so again, Thanks for those who greeting me on my birthday. Love you guys a lotz...


Thanks.


Regards,
Jameson Chong

Thx..session 1

Just a short and fast post..
thx to those to greet me for birthday
thx for still rmb me..
love u guys

(will list out who are they when i back to kl)

now i am having a trip in kuantan,
a working trip..
will back on monday morning..
hehhe...

^_^

disappear-ING

I just want to say,
i am going to disappear myself again.
I am going to Kuantan tomorrow.
I am going to celebrate my birthday in Kuantan again.
since last year i was celebrating in the same place.
But last year was going for a trip.
this year i am going for work =.=
sad...

felt like not really willing to go..
but have to go too...
nvm..is ok..

so anyone who miss me..
call me XD
hahaha...

all the best to me...
=X

吶喊

"從來不知道誰是真心對待你,不要相信了!"

我看到這句話後
頓時在想
怎麼好像有人被騙了
可是我又沒有勇氣問
哈哈
只好在這裡瞎猜囉

多希望某人能夠相信我
所以只好下工夫
努力感動某人囉
嘻嘻

我現在很想大喊
"我會真心對待你的,請你相信我!!!"

我瘋了嗎?
或許吧~


某人應該不懂我在告訴她吧 XD

複雜的愛情故事

很奇怪的感覺
不可以說是愛情
也不能形容是單純的友情
這個就像一個陷阱
要男主角恨恨地掉下這個陷阱

可是
今天
男主角
終於
知道

她好像表面暫時不想戀愛
內心卻十五十六
雖然不是親口由當事人說出來
可是男主角
現在心里也是十七十八
不懂該如何做

天啊
這世界的故事怎麼那麼麻煩啊
複雜兼麻煩

XD

胡言亂語的張力耀

孤獨中
尋找一個依賴
原來一點都不容易

茫茫中
尋找一個信念
更是難上加難

漫長的道路
看不見的終點
永遠是未知數
我要如何看見

生存只求一個信念
生活但願一個安穩
人生起起落落幅度
比股票來得更快

因為人
往往不懂幾時告別這個世界

結果呢?
就醬囉..
我都不懂自己胡言亂語蝦米
只懂現在很煩
可是又沒有人可以幫到我
想找的人又找不到她陪我聊天
想看到的人現在又不在我身邊
太多東西我要去想
可是想不通時
心情就會不好了
天啊,
這是甚麼張力耀.....

07的月亮在哪方

賞月
不是我常做的事
月餅
不是我愛吃的食物
燈籠
不是我會玩的玩具
這樣
中秋節對我意義何在呢?

不懂多少年了
我的中秋節沒有和家人一起度過
中秋節的晚上
我頂多會和爸媽聊一下電話就算了
因為我不喜歡和老人家聊電話
哈哈
老媽今天早上還特地打電話來
叫我明天去約我那個哥哥吃飯
我只回答老媽一句話
她就無法回覆了
"如果我明天不用工作,我或許會考慮."
對嘛~
畢竟她大兒子是哥哥
怎麼可能要小兒子去約哥哥吃飯
不可能的大事來得

哈哈,
畢竟張力耀到頭來就是四個字形容
- 重色輕友 -

XD

開玩笑啦~
說真的,
我並不愛應酬自己家人
因為聊的話題都是我不想講的話
而且來來去去都是一成不變
"最近怎樣啊?做工怎樣啊?"
"不要亂亂花錢啊,錢難賺啊!"
最恐怖的是
如果遇到某些親戚(最好不要是那種幾百年不見面一次的那種)
第一句話 = "哇,那是看你才小小個,現在已經那麼大了..."
每聽到這句話,
我的額頭頓時出現超過三條直直的粗線
=.=|||

算了吧
今年中秋命中注定一個人度過
甚至連生日也應該如此 (快到了)
反正我現在不屬於任何一派

我的生命中
好像從來只有一次生日會
就是去年其他十一金釵幫我慶祝的
只是那個已經成為過去了
往事只能回味

在這裡
祝賀大家
身體健康
萬事如意

大家記得
祝賀我
生日快樂
身體健康
財源廣進
事事順利
福壽安康

不懂還有甚麼
記得再講吧

LinYuZhong + JinSha in the house

Just want to share with you guys somethings
I have been located in Cineleisure for event,
is a online game launching
i forget what the game name,
(because is too long to remember it),
but its ambassadors are Lin Yu Zhong and Jin Sha.

They were there on Saturday noon time,
to officially launch the event.
here is one of the video,
which my fren take my phone and record it.



is abit shakey...hahhaa...

Just want to share with you..
Jin Sha is beautiful + Cute + Pretty
oh my gosh...
hahaha

this is the original MV -
Reborn - Lin Yu Zhong / JinSha
复活 - 林宇中 / 金莎



check this out...~

Happy Belated Birthday to LiJing.

i found this few days i am facing a problem
i always forget ppl's birthday
again...i forget my darling LJ's birthday..

LiJING
Happy Belated Birthday (x999999999999)

so so so so so sorry...
this few days too busy with work..
so forget to greet you in the exact day..
i do rmb your birthday few days ago..
but suddenly forget
so sorry
if you a kiss back...request it..XD
hahaha...is a joke...

soli ya Lijing....
erm...Don angry me ya XD
i know i am forgetful + mou sam
hahaha

LIJING...

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY

from JAMESON

very belated wish to mann mann

mann, don read this post...

caused i guarantee confirm u will gik sei

XD

now only i remember ...

Your birthday just past..

2weeks ago... (^-^)

hehe...

HAPPY BELATED(x1000) BIRTHDAY

to dearest MANN MANN

haha..don angry ya...

=P

thEmE of tOdaY

thEmE of tOdaY

Same but Different

it's sad T..T
copyrighted by JC-SkY Series 2007

tHemE of toDaY

tHemE of toDaY

HOLIDAY SUX?

XD

copyrighted by JC-SkY Series 2007

I'm not FXXKER...

giving out a piece of nothing,
i realize my life start to change.

This is the first OFFICIAL rest day,
since i start to work.
Guess what,
as usual..i m boring with HOLIDAY.
XD
i know some of you will say:
"what the fxxk, have holiday oso complain."
but this is Jameson Chong.
i prefer my life full with things to do,
but sometimes i will complain that i am tired,
when you give me a chance to rest,
i will complain that i m boring.
this is what we call 犯賤 in chinese
in english, u can say is FXXKER..
but pls don put that word on me..
haha...

=P

thEmE of TodAy

tHeMe of tOdaY

WHERE IS MY LUCK?

copyrighted by JC-SKY Series

luck is always ..... not be with me

i always got a question in my mind..
why i always get in bad mood?

today i started to realize that,
i am getting bad mood always.
is just becoz i always having bad luck,
maybe.

since the start of this week,
i am suffering with a lotz of unlucky matters.
i am asking myself why,
but i cant ans it.

i never met something bad happen continuous,
it happens again and again and again and again
just in 3 days time.
What should i do about this?

someone willing to let me punch arr?? XD
maybe Lijing willin..
but i am afraid she will punch me back...
and i am the one masuk hospital...
hahhaa...

=P

Theme of today

tHe THEME of today

I LOST MYSELF

copyright by JC-SKY Series 2007

給LJ的一封情信, 請笑納 =X

"我迷失了自己...愛情事業友情..我都屬於被動狀態...
我完全捉摸不到定點...到底何時張力耀才能清醒呢?
帝國區二代...你知道嗎? 我快要看不見自己了..
因為眼睛已被帝國區二代給遮住了.."

為甚麼我會用這句話開始?
有我MSN的人相信都應該會看到這句話
因為這真是我的PM

我之所以會放上來
是因為LJ說她懶惰去明白
所以我就上來解釋囉
你看,
LJ 我對你多好 XD

LJ,
我最近心情不是很好
所以很常找你聊天
(就是不懂為甚麼心情不好找你聊天一定沒事的,
你是神嗎?? =X )
從生病開始,
我就覺得自己完全不在該有的生活狀態
我完全沒有辦法控制自己的想法
無倫做甚麼事情都不是很順心
甚至在事業上,
我也到了一個瓶頸
綁死自己,然後強迫自己到一個角落頭痛苦的活下去
即使到現在,
我還是無法突破瓶頸

然後在家庭上,
我突然發覺我和家人的溝通越來越少了
我老媽好幾次打電話來
我竟然可以沒有時間接電話,
或者沒有時間多聊幾句
我開始覺得,
我在事業上的衝勁,
我的家人已經慢慢從我的心里消失了

再來是友情
很多人都懂張力耀永遠將友情放在第一位
可是現在我竟然可以淪落到討厭幾位應該屬於是朋友的人
這裡裡面有滿多的插曲,
也很難一一解釋
只是我開始慢慢變了
對於一些友情,
我開始放淡了
我不再寄託那麼多的感情在這些友誼
因為我覺得我不能在承受那種無謂的評倫,要求,責罵
我根本無需要去介懷他們的感受
因為我了解到"我就是我"的道理

最後來到了愛情
LJ 我喜歡上你了..你完蛋了...
哈哈..開玩笑罷了..
LJ, 記得甚麼是帝國區嗎?
如果你記得,
你也應該記得我跟你講過的2nd generation..
XD

好了
我要去洗白白了
LJ,
看完了 MSN 我
不過可能我已經進入你的夢鄉了
哈哈...

總結:
LJ,你明白我要表達的東西嗎?
我的SUMMARY是不是很好咧
**I LOST MYSELF**

donnu what am i sayin..

Guess what,
i am blogging inside a cybercafe in SS2,
i just finished work from event in 1u.
Today might not be a lucky day for me,
but i cant say myself unlucky.
is just not so many luck be with me.
hehehe...
y i say so?
ask me in personal,
i might let you know
=P

btw,
i am getting better recover from my sick.
although i still have a bit sore throat and coughin
but hope that it will become better and recover soon.
because i don wan Lijing to worry about me.
XD
Lijing, touch or not?? XD
hahaha...
just a joke.
tell u what,
even my parents also donnu i am sicked..

i have a habit,
beside one of the doctor in my hometown,
i seldom go to see doctor when i m sicked,
what i do is just usually take some medic from house,
and just rest
but i donnu why i just don wan to see doctor.
someone say that i am weird...
ya..i am
i never say i am a very normal ppl..
i am very weird in my attitude,
i am very weird in my characteristic,
i am very weird in my everything.
XD

share something with you guys next time,
is about something related to me and around me.

chiaoz ady
byebye,
cybercafe... XD

Thanks for getting worse????

"








"
I am not speechless...
the reason why is so much blank..
is because i lost of my voice..
i cant talk much >.<
and my sick is getting worse..

what can i do about this?
maybe nth...

btw...

i am here is to thanks everyone who care about me when i was sicked
especially to Lijing...
sms and leave msg for me..
thanks Lijing...
haha...
i felt happy to see all your msg...
cum cum cum..
sms me always...XD
hahaha...

ok..i am going to take my bath and have a good rest..
but have to wash clothes as well =.=
haha...
chiaoz..

anything just drop a msg, or sms me, or call me..
but not for the purpose to hear my LOST VOICE (begging for no..plsss XD)
hehe...
chiaoz...

^^

YuPz..i am SICK-ed

ah Hemmmmm....
i am having a sore throat
and fever
ya, is now!
but it started since yesterday.
T_T
cant talk too much,
but how m i going to work
btw,
i still work on today..
Sick wont affect me wat...
hehehe....

gambateh lurr...
myself..

XD

tHe Late post

haha...
first of all,
i need to apologize,
regarding to late posting of what's happen on me in Mentakab

Actually this morning i am thinking to write this in chinese,
but donnu why when i come back to home,
i feel like wanna write english.
is a long time i never post out a chinese blog ady.
I know...
hehe

I called the Mentakab trip as a Road Trip.
To be honest,
i get to use to my job when i was assigned to Mentakab.
I built my confindence from there.
I built my strength from there.
I get to know what's my weak from there as well.
And and and,
the most important thing is,
i started to get closed with my team members,
especially my leader.
haha..
she won't read this blog,
so is ok for me to critic her...
wakakka...
just a joke =P

by the way,
there is one thing i think is quite funny happen.
During almost last of thr first day PC Fair,
is a friday,
one of our competitor reseller
(actually none of competition feeling to us at all XD).
try to quarrel with my another leader.
Reason i cant tell it here..
(so keep it as secret,
if you wan to know the secret,
watch Jay Chou's new movie - SECRET XD XD)
but what make me think funny is,
the competitor reseller acted like a child,
not even a child,
is a BABY. ( or you can say it as a BABI ^^)
Guess what he did,
he did something that we only do it during our primary school,
or maybe early of secondary school >.<
he went and pour water on my another leader's head (who is his quarrel target).

Oh my gosh,
imagine a person i think more than 40 (XD)
acted like a child,
never think before he did things,
This is what we called idiot as well...
hahaha
but hor, when my manager arrived in front of him,
he started to become fear
why? try to guess it loo...
then i never saw him again in the next two days.

Oh ya, beside this,
i saw something Lijing very like...




haha...
LiJing, i tot u will post it in ur blog..
hahaha...
sorry ya for the late posting


finally,
before i end and go to take my bath
i would like to say sorry to :
1) Likeat - sorry for cant accompany u chat. i know i did promise u in sdk. But really sorry coz this few days really busy with my works.

2) Lijing - Sorry for cant find u chat, but u did actually not on9 rite? =.= donnu what for i am saying sorry to you again..haha

3) MannMann - Sorry for not disturbing u this few days. I let you have too much good time ady. You wait laa...the days is coming back...kekeke

chiaoz 1st...bath and zzzz

^^

Back from lost

hoho...
I'm back..
I'm back from Pahang..
I'm back from Mentakab, pahang

haha...
i was out-stationed to Mentakab PC Fair this week.
quite enjoying the trip,
until me and my colleague not willing to come back here.

There are a lotz of things happen in this week,
but i cant rmb them now,
maybe too old ady..
the brain cant turn faster..
donnu can put in a TURBO and make it faster tak?? XD
hehe...

let me have a good rest 1st
and will story out whats happen to me...

^^

Good nite at 5pm =P

Liverpool rules

Something happen funny today.
Until today only i know that,
supporting Liverpool is not a wrong choice.
Why i say so?

Today i am assigned to PC Fair,
and i have signed up one of the customers.
Guess the reason he is signing with me.

Ya,
He also a Liverpool fans.
One thing he said that make me salute.
"Because of Liverpool, I choose to sign up"
wow...
I am shocked + excited when i heard this,
I am wondering whether he is joking or not,
but he really signed up the form.
And we talk a lot bout Liverpool.
He asked me that when Robbie Fowler first left liverpool,
am i being sad?
haha...
But i tell him that i was supporting Michael Owen that time.
The most funny thing is,
he called me Owen when we finsihed sign up the things,
IN FRONT OF HIS WIFE.
Oh my gosh,
I din expected that Supporting liverpool can bring me this kind of benefits.
haha...cool man~

I am motivated now.
My parents actually are trying to persuade me to change my job,
and some of my friends as well,
but sorry laa...
Now i am motivated by some reasons,
So i will choose to stay at the current situation,
although sometimes i might get tired...

nevermind, is ok for me..
I am still young what...
haha....
my age still starting with "1"
kakakaka...

XD

Haby BufdAy to Seok Yong~

Oh my god,
second post within 1 hour
XD
Sorry, is actually my plan to do so

SEOK YONG

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY ya~~~~

hehe...

i m still 1X only...wakakaka

hahahaha...

*I am supposed to post this on tomorrow,

but sorry oo, tomorrow will be a busy day for me,

so i be the 1st to greet you.

somemore wanna make you feel that you are older than me. XD

hahaha...is a joke...

I am jelousing, how come you still look like a child? =P

Another Crappinz about LIFE

Actually i plan to blog since days ago,
but life is making me busy,
so until today,
i am abit free,
so i decided that is time for me to blog again.

I have started my works for 4days,
everyday is quite a tiring day,
except for today.

I am wondering that why i will choose a job like this,
haha,
tell you guys what,
I started for 4 days,
i enjoyed my 4 days.
So i din see any reasons that i should wonder.
As what my colleague and bosses always say.
the more hardworking you are, the more you will get.
And a lotz of things are motivating me to actually be hardworking,
but i donnu how to describe it here.

Oh ya,
did anyone knows what is the Zone of Empire?
If you have read my previous WRETCH blog,
i think u get know about this.
My working place is another Zone of Empire.

OK la,
until here i am abit speechless,
my brain is STUCKED,
haha...
XD

so everyone,
Thanks for caring me,
thanks for supporting me,
thanks for crapping with me..

Jom,
chiaozzzzzzz
(Sorry, i am not going to sleep now, OK?!)
(is only 7.16pm in Malaysia. What for???)

=P

Streamyx Promotion is back

Do everyone know I am a Streamyx Agent?
haha...Now I am telling you that I am!
Ya..I know sometimes their services is sucks
But they are the cheapest and best in town.

Now,
there are some promotion offered:

!! Merdeka Bash !!

1Mbps @ RM77 per month Free Modem.
Contractual for 24 months.
Validity 1/8/2007 - 30/9/2007


hehe...
Anyone who is interested,
kindly email me in regencysky@gmail.com
For more information,
log on to http://www.freewebs.com/regencysky
or maybe you can call me.

^^

CRAP-ing

Life is kinda boring.
I mean holiday life.
I remember i used to enjoy my holiday.
But that is years ago.
Maybe 5 years ago.
Now for me.
Holiday in my hometown is nothing.
No.
Is something that i don't hope to happen.
But sometimes when i think about friends here.
I wished i could stay here.
How poor is my life.
Not to the left but not to the right too.
Standing in the middle line.
But watching nothing.
I spent my day here without anything but just hanging out.
The only place i go always is friend's cyber cafe.
Playing game with him.
And with his + my friends.
By the way.
I am going back soon.
To the lovely town.
Facing the busy life.
Ya.
I like busy life.
Ya.
I am crapping now!!!

CRAP rules my life.
XD

起床囉~~~

張力耀發現
原來張力耀當了很久的笨蛋
可是依然矇喳喳的過生活

回到來家鄉
這次我遇到了很多人
尤其是舊的情人或愛人
讓我突然回憶起以前的點點滴滴
你們相信嗎?
張力耀曾經是一個心甘情願為女人付出的人
可是因為幾次的傷害
流過血和淚
我發誓絕不為女人再次付出男人淚和一滴血.
我做到了

只是昨晚和一個前女友聊天時
突然覺得自己像一個傻瓜
那通電話我講了兩個小時二十九分鐘四十九秒
用了我馬幣二十一元
打這通電話的用意其實是想勸告加安慰她
可是我講了甚麼都沒有用
結果剛剛跟我說沒有勇氣去承擔這一切
我頓時覺得自己像笨蛋
浪費了那麼多精神和金錢
結果被告知的結果是如此白痴
我只有一個念頭
我昨晚浪費的精神是白費的
自己其實是一個傻瓜
根本就不應該插手她的事情
畢竟是她自己要活在她的夢幻世界里
干麼我要多管閒事呢

算了吧
張力耀
在人的眼里
可能我是人太好了
被當作笨蛋兼傻瓜利用
果然義字當頭是會被利用的
哈哈
天真的張力耀
醒來吧~~!!!

嘻嘻...
我已經醒來了,
我現在在打部落格啊

XD

This Is Why I am "NOT"

Recently I am facing some personal problems. I tried to analyse them to make it as simple as they can be. But finally i found that is not easy to persuade myself to choose the only option i have.

Further up my studies is one of the main problems i faced recently. I know that my mum hope that i can continue my degree. But my dad said that he is not able to put me up to the twinning programme which require a year in local and another year in Austrlia, and cost around RM150,000 for this two years (estimated RM50,000 for the year in local and RM100,000 for the year in Australia). So he "offer" me an option - finish my degree in local which only cost him less than RM80,000.

I asked myself a lot of times, should i accept this offer? I know that local degree at least is better than a diploma. But this is not what i want since i have a mind to study Diploma in Mass Communication. I really hope that i can go oversea and explore how oversea countries operate their broadcasting system. I really hope that my future will be in TV station. But hope is not the final result we can see.

Guess what, i choose not to continue my degree in local, and since my parents unable to let me out to oversea, i choose to work. I found a job nearby KLCC. It actually not really related to Mass Comm, but as LiJing told me last night, i am looking for a job to earn some money first, but not to settle down my future now. So i just try to gain some experience from this job first, and apply what i learn into my future.

I might continue study in my future. Who can say i won't. Even myself cant make a decision about this. So currently, i just fill up my life with some social communication skills. I hope that i did not make a wrong decision.

Oh ya, I never regret about the decisions i made before. ^_^

I called this as my "BuLoG".

Since I am back to my hometown and got nothing to do besides sleep, eat, play and online, I made a decision that I might want to build up my blog by changing some of the elements:

1. adding a counter stat into it
- reason for adding this is to satisfy myself by monitoring the number changing one by one.

2. adding a shout-out box
- reason for adding is because i miss the mIRC-style chatting but i am lazy to use mIRC.

3. changing my blogging style
- the reason for changing style is because i am using Chinese to blog, but some of my friends complained that they can't understand Chinese. So to be fair... Ooops..no, to be convenience for them, i decided to blog in both language. Mixture style of this blog is what I want to try. But with my poor English, please, please don't expect i can type with perfect english here. I will assume that you guys know the meaning of BROKEN LANGUAGE. XD Oh ya, this is a way to improve my English too.

Hope everyone continue enjoy here. Anyone who want to exchange blog address, kindly drop me a message in MSN, Friendster or Email.

Let us begin to rock this BuLoG, JC-SkY Series.

Cheers.

澄清啟事 XD

哈哈
(好奇怪的笑聲)
為甚麼會以這個笑聲開頭?
因為今天有人對號入座了

有條水今天向我投訴
說我潑他冷水
幸好那時我不在電腦前面
然後當我回到電腦前面時
那個該死的MSN斷線了
哈哈
注定..
天注定的...

沒有啦!!!
並沒有要潑他冷水的意思
昨天那篇寫的清清楚楚啦~~
你不給我針對某某某咩?
=P

其實真的沒有針對任何一個人
那只不過純粹為個人想法+意見

期待的abc之123

很悶很悶
過了幾個悶的日子
真的不知道有時候回來到底為了甚麼
為了見一見自己的朋友?
還是為了休息一下,離開那城市的壓力?

幸好不至於悶到每天只在家看戲發呆
可是想起那鬱悶的晚上
望的不是那一片無際的天空
望的也不是那永遠數不清的星星
而是抬頭望到的是一盞燈,加上幾塊天花板
低頭望的是幾片地磚,偶爾地磚上有幾條裂痕

望前方是兩個15吋的屏幕
一個大的,一個薄的
一個佔了桌子很大的位子,一個連桌子都沒碰到的
一個用塑膠盤承住,一個是被主機板和鍵盤連接在一起
一個是關著的,一個是開著的

啊~
兩個屏幕的啟示:
同樣的東西,可以有很多不同的介面
就是看要從那裡去看
用甚麼時代的眼光去看
用怎麼樣的心情去對待
就會產生不一樣的東西

時代慢慢在進步了
身為年輕人的我
現在是與時並進
跟著潮流時尚的步伐前進
慢慢的挖掘屬於自己的潮流時尚
慢慢的我要告訴別人我不一樣
暫時我沒有想過要甚麼屬於自己品牌之類的想法
因為我覺得如果自己沒有走在自己一條道路上
即使走在自己的道路上,可是沒有在那條路上穩定腳步
我覺得擁有那種想法或許到最後,甚至肯定
那會是一種荒唐
只要闖出自己的一番風格,那就是自己的品牌了
或許不是每個人都是有那麼的想法
也沒有說想對那些有這種想法的人潑冷水
只不過現在我的確是那麼想

這次回來這裡除了悶
其實我想了很多東西
想了現在所擁有的
想了未來即將有的
想了自己前面的一道路
一條坎坷不平的路
我覺得我的人生需要冒險
需要經過磨練
所以我決定了
回去吉隆坡
我要全力以赴我的工作
爭取我要的經驗
顯示出我有的本能
發揮我應有的潛能

我的人生...
我來也~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

期待當中.....

家

Dialing 1315
Verify Username and Password
.....

好久沒看過這幾個字體了
只能說
用了它們
網絡比機場的無線慢了好幾百倍

回到家的感覺
好像不習慣了
我幾乎比較喜歡PJ的生活
至少自由自在
可是家鄉的生活比較輕便
沒有大城市的那種忙碌壓力

我在想
等下這篇東西會需要多久時間上傳呢
畢竟1315的極速有限

3
2
1
我要按上傳囉~~~~~~~~~~~~~^^

機場的新無線

AK5162
這是蝦咪?
嘻嘻
這是我現在在等待廣播器呼叫的號碼
因為它是我的班機編號

2007年7月12日 下午1時11分XX秒
也就是現在
我人在吉隆坡國際廉價機場
簡稱LCCT的P9出境處前面
坐著

原來機場已經安裝了無線上網
讓遊客在等待飛機的同時
可以上網解悶
可是網絡速度是難以形容
MSN上不到
就連上這個天地
也許要等上好幾分鐘
可以媲美伯樂學院的網絡
哈哈
好久沒用過不能上MSN兼速度超慢的網絡了

**短暂的来回奔跑
不曾解开的背包
我参与的人生太潦草
快乐常在门外绕
太多陌生的夜晚让我困扰**
(摘自於林俊傑-不流淚的機場)

每次來到機場
就讓我想起久違的家里
那溫暖的家
我好久沒踏入了
慢慢的
我逐漸習慣了原本陌生地帶的一切
不再像這個旅程的開端
讓我感覺恐懼害怕
我已征服了這裡的一切
來到了另外一段該走的道路
沒有人知道前面的路有多坎坷
只能說即使多難行走的前面
我相信一定會有一段是鋪上了瀝青的道路
順暢無比

好了
我該時候收拾電腦
準備上飛機了

久違了,山打根
~!!~

我要去頭部按摩

我告訴你們
今天我的壓力好像不見了
我好像終於找到一個可以解除我的壓力方法
但這個方法幾乎是一門偏方

我懂得開始享受現有的一切
不懂為甚麼
今天去剪了一個我這一年內最短的頭髮
為了找到工作
唯有犧牲自己寶貴珍貴的頭髮
可是今天的犧牲我卻突然樂意的很
為甚麼?
哈哈
因為有美女幫我洗頭髮 XD
屁啦!!不是啦!! 亂講...

今天發現原來頭部按摩可以讓我消除壓力
可能真的是幫洗頭髮的那個人功夫到家
我很享受那個moment
洗完頭髮後
整個人就變的輕鬆無比
加上剪短了頭髮
比較涼爽
所以變成有一種很"輕"的感覺

現在整個人開始慢慢輕鬆起來
只希望能夠儘快找到一份工作
安定自己現在的生活
輕輕鬆鬆活下去

啊~~
忘了...
我要再去剪頭髮...剃光
哈哈..開玩笑的
我不敢咧
只是很想再去按摩頭部

嘻嘻
不要讓我爸媽看到這篇東西
不然他們準氣的七孔噴血
=P

無腳的小鳥

昨晚發了一場奇怪的夢
令我回想起一些往事
有快樂的
也有不快樂的
有滿足的
也有遺憾的

我在想
是不是真的人生有了遺憾才會完美
那場夢讓我回想到以前的滿足與遺憾
無倫是我的童年,親情,友情,或者是愛情

童年 - 我想起了一些自己做的事情
突然覺得自己很傻
還會不停問自己
為甚麼以前會發生那種事情

親情 - 看到了自己以往對待家人的態度
突然有一種感覺
我以後的子子孫孫會不會用回同樣的態度對待我

友情 - 我可以為朋友付出那麼多
可是為甚麼真心的朋友卻沒幾個
真真的朋友我可以用兩個手掌的手指數完
或甚至一個手掌

愛情 - 曾經一段很穩固的愛情擺在自己的面前
得到了卻沒有好好珍惜
反而因為一些無謂的爭吵
讓自己遺失掉了一個愛

回想起來
原來自己已經逐漸的踏入成熟的階段
人老了
或許^^

透過這場夢
我覺得自己開始成為了無腳的小鳥
很想飛
可是飛不得

人生的選擇之一

**我受够了等待,
你所谓的安排
到底多久多久才来
你总是要我乖,
慢慢计划将来
我想依赖却你都不在
应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白**

這是周傑倫-倒帶的第一段歌詞

其實很想問問老天爺
我何時才能恢復好運的時期
我了解每個人都必須經過這種所謂的"三衰六旺"
可是也不必讓我在這個時候衰起來吧
現在只是想全心全意找到一份工作
不必讓家人操心
也想讓自己放下一個心理的包袱
我的確很想依賴老天爺的好運
可是我得到的暫時還是空白
希望好運會很快回來我身邊

借用剛才朋友講的一句話 -
"有遺憾的人生才是十全十美的"

我的人生太多遺憾了吧
那應該很完美囉~~^^
(偷笑了)

Life is such a cracking road
生命就是如此坎坷不平
人生的路途遙遠的很
我不應該為了那麼一點點小事
為自己帶來了那麼多的壓力
我做到嗎?

選擇A - 我做到的
選擇B - 我做不到的
選擇C - 我也不知道咧

好運何時才能回來

原來出來社會真的不是想像中那麼簡單
原來出來社會找工作已經不是一件容易的事情

唉
我終於體會到了
看到幸運之神從旁邊擦身而過的滋味
即使多麼的努力
多麼的願意
還是一一被拒於門外

我開始自信心受到創傷
心里已經是百般的滋味了
多麼想
現在可以找到一份工作
安分守己的作好啊~

命運何苦那樣作弄我呢..
已經淹沒了我出國的夢想
連現在找工作讓我處處碰釘
好運何時才能回來啊~~

重新回來這裡了

好久好久沒來這裡了
可是從今天起
這裡是我的地盤
(先來一段"周傑倫-我的地盤"音樂嘛~)

啊哼...
在我地盤這,你就得聽我的
啦啦啦啦啦啦啦...(糟糕..忘了怎麼唱)

為甚麼會從新回來這裡呢?
我也不懂..
就天時地利人和的配合
讓我偷偷摸摸的回來
(好鬼祟哦~~~~~~)

**心在想...這裡可以挨幾久...哈哈...(冷)**

=P