聖誕節快樂
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聖誕節快樂
2008年要來了
歡迎來到詹姆申的霸王天空. 這裡有我講,冇人講. 點冇?!
我回來了
消失了一個星期
去了Batu Pahat 一趟
帶著很多東西回來
帶著一個輝煌的成績
帶著一個顧慮的心情
帶著一個已經準備離去的心情
帶著一個失望的心情
帶著一個絕望的思想
帶著一個左右不定的步伐
帶著一個不再忠的心
回到了幸福花園的家裡
發現了一袋煩惱
也發現了一袋憂慮
同時也無意中發現了一袋準備離去的行李
很想說...
我已經無法好像開始般的集中
時間越久
看到的東西更多
看到的東西更多
顧慮就更多
顧慮多了
煩惱就很多
煩惱多了
思想就會逐漸改變
思想改變了
所謂的Negatives就會出現了
一旦Negatives出現了
人的心就會變化
當心出現變化了
已經是準備離去的時候了
我知道現在我有的是龐大的機會
唯一需要等的就是時機
時機也就是時間加機會的合体
我的心原本是十一十二的
可是當我無意中發現了某種東西
我的心馬上變成十五十六了
再這樣想下去
很快這會變成十九二十
我不懂有沒有人看的懂我在寫甚麼
總結:
我現在活在灰色天空下
不懂的會是下雨或是晴天
又或者是夜晚...
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 5:41 PM
逞強
一路以來是我在做的事情
可是今天
逞強讓我看清楚某些事件
真真認識張力耀的人都應該懂的
張力耀最討厭被人利用
今天,
不!是昨天晚上
我發現了
我被一個我當作是朋友和工作夥伴的人利用
利用我對某人的感情
利用我對某人的親情
利用我對某人的犧牲
利用我對某人的愛戴
利用我對某人的尊重
利用我對某人的信用
利用我對某人的交情
做了一些違背良心的事情
對,
我承認...
平時那對我來說可能是一些小事情
可是如果你利用我
但是你做到了你應該做的
你遵守你的諾言
那我會毫不介意
可是最令我度懶的是..
你不懂沒有遵守諾言
還一直找一些無謂的藉口
一直在演一些一去就穿幫的戲兒
一直在拖延應該去承擔的東西
而且還讓我發覺在利用我和某人建立起來的一切
這個足以讓我反感.
真的很想罵一句
"他媽的臭XX"
fxxk off.....
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 12:29 AM
結果
我被判死刑
雖然是死刑
可是我一點難過也沒有
只是有點捨不得
我開口告訴她
我預料會被否決
所以今天早上
我已下定決心要放棄
我必須從新來過
我必須從新集中
謝謝妳讓我愛過妳
我很享受愛妳的過程
即使失敗
我也沒有後悔過
我知道我沒那個能力打動妳的心
我唯有捨棄那痛苦的掙扎
讓愛情轉換為一種比友情更深的感情
我稱它為親情
或許現階段姐弟是最適合
我知道建立一份感情不容易
感謝一路以來的寬容
讓我成功愛上了妳
也讓我知道真正的愛情並不容易
相信我倆一起建立的感情
會永久
最後一次說
"我愛妳"
一封弟弟寫給姊姊的最後情信
宣告愛情不成立的同時
讓親情出現在彼此的世界裡
溫暖彼此的心里
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 1:05 AM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 12:58 AM
#Top# *Ala and me, Zoe try to join in, but too slow* #Bottom# *Retake the photo....Yeahhh......~!! *
#Top# *Zoe and me...* #Bottom# *me and Young*
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 9:59 PM
今天早上
突然想了一大堆的無聊問題
突然有種意念
"我很想放棄!"
我在催眠自己放棄
可是我同時間又在平衡
自己付出了那麼多
如果現在放棄
那我即不是前功盡廢了嗎?
可是如果我不放棄
我自己會陷入掙扎狀態
完全不能集中在事業,友情和親情
那我就可能一事無成了
只是即使我多麼去想
自動關心和擁護已經好像成為了一種習慣
到了某時某分
我會自動自發拿起手機
按下短訊
告訴她我已經到家了
等下可以去接她陪她回來
或者陪她吃晚餐
我即使嘗試花點心機在別人身上
可是也不能轉移她的魔力
我想我已經完全陶醉在這個遊戲陷阱裡面了
即使身在危險
我想我會毫不放棄
即使被恨恨的耍
我想我會毫不埋怨
結論就是
我還不知道自己該不該放棄
即使我知道外界認為我應該
可是我也不願意那麼樣就放棄她
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:34 PM
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SkY-ed by MC Jam at 12:55 AM
BMW Shorties screening at HELP University College
BMW Malaysia in collaboration with Kelab Seni Filem Malaysia and HELP University College will be screening a selection non-finalist BMW Shorties films on the 30th of November 2007.
Touted as a competition with a difference, the BMW Shorties is a short film competition that has galvanized aspiring cinematic talents in Malaysia towards producing quality films. This will be an opportunity for you not only to witness your film being screened to the general public, but also an excellent opportunity to which you can interact with respected professionals from the Malaysian film industry.
Date : 30th November 2007
Time : 7.00pm – 10.00pm
Venue : HELP University College Theatrette
p/s : donnu my film will appear on that day or not....hmmmmm
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:32 PM
i just suddenly think about this when the time i was taking shower just now
Why don't a person who know he/she is going to die commit in suicide? Since he or she know that Azrael is coming to take him/her away. Why don't just die earlier to avoid himself/herself thinking too much of things?
Then i came out with an answer myself : Because he/she might waiting for miracle coming, or he/she just not willing to accept his/her life is going to end soon.
Back to my personal life, i know myself is going to end. But i still continue with it, because is just i not willing to accept it as an ending like that. I am waiting for miracle as well.
But the point is, WHEN??? and will miracle appear???
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:25 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 9:56 PM
Now
Mood: A little bit happy but confuse
Location: Somewhere around Malaysia
Time: Sometime not having the sun in the sky
Character: the J and someone else =>
Why: Is just something relating to someone else =>
Incident: (is there any?? XD) i just have a nice but short chat...easy satisfied XD
Nothing much happen today, is just that i am a little bit happy, but still don't dare to close. >.<
DONE
-the eNd-
Theme Song: (serious got no idea what theme song shall i put =P)
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:28 PM
"这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给"
這是周傑倫-我不配裡頭的副歌部分
我真的開始覺得感覺不對了
一通電話就可以令我感覺不一樣了
我給了我應該給的體貼
可是
得到的就是不理不睬
冷冷淡淡的回應
有種敷衍的感覺
我真的覺得很失望
也覺得自己很失敗
無倫我做甚麼
都好像沒有用
即使我多麼努力
即使我多麼遷就
我得到的依然可能是個零
事到如今
我知道自己必須停下來
冷靜分析自己所做了的一切
我即使多麼不想放棄
可是我不能在這樣下去
因為這樣下去的結果
90巴仙會是
我會崩潰
可是我做不到放棄她
我根本就不可能放下她
我想利用多去關丹的一個星期
試著放棄她
可是現在我連要去關丹的勇氣都沒有
因為我的心始終以她為主
當然在她眼裡我應該過去做工
可是她根本不知道我捨不得她
對!
我知道這可能會很小孩子
可是愛上一個人就是這樣
我選擇了這條路
我就預料會到這一步
或許當初應該像朋友昨天所說的
"不要做自己不肯定的事情,
只要不是一百巴仙肯定的,
都不要完完全全付出一切"
這場遊戲可以玩到何時
應該還是一個未知數
可是我知道是時候按下停頓鍵(PAUSE)
但
我沒那個勇氣去按下.................................
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:25 PM
http://jamesonchong.blogspot.com/2007/10/for-someone-else-again.html
這個是我在差不多一個月前
在朋友的MSN看到的一句話
現在我從新看到那句話
可是我把它修改了
從
""其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈,可每当有陌生男人和你接触时 ,他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁,那是因为他在乎你……""
改成
"其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈,可每当有熟悉男人和你交談或溝通时 ,他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁,那是因为他在乎你……"
這句話在這個時候剛剛好可以派上用場
我現在就是這樣的心情
我看到了不想看到的情景
即使我心中對自己說這沒有東西的
即使我自己也知道真的沒有東西的
可是就是那個心裡作怪
會去胡思亂想
我是犯賤嗎?
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:40 PM
我現在很想一個人冷靜下來
從新分析自己已經做了的,現在做著的,還有未來的計畫
原來我發覺我自己已經涉及在一些我們所謂的"公司政治"
不懂為甚麼
愛著一個人
可以豪不自覺的涉及很多無聊的東西
某些事情已經幾乎被公告天下了
突然在聽到一些因為這件事情而產生的誤會
(雖然我老早已經懂了)
而且是從第三者再次聽到這個誤會
我的心突然有一種不是滋味
我現在很想開始保持距離
可是我又害怕失去一切
即使是近水樓臺先得月
所以我現在唯一可以做的就是
儘快把她變成我的女朋友 XD
可是我絞盡腦汁也想不到對策
我不想在被這一連三的風波騷擾到我
可是自己卻放不下一切
看來我需要一些冷靜
冷靜思考一下
接下來我該如何是好
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 8:57 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:32 PM
很多東西在我的角度看下去
完全覺得這是百分百完美
可是當你嘗試跳出自己的角度
站在別人的角度看
你可能會發覺原來別人眼中看到的
並不是想像中完美
並不是看到你想要表達的結果
當別人發表他們的想法
你往往會發現百分百完美的事情
就會如別人所說的那樣
如果那是好的想法
那還好
可是如果那個是完全相反
在你眼中你根本不希望發生的事情
卻看在別人的眼里
我會很想開始知道問題的所在了
可是很多問題不是一瞬間,
一個人可以單獨解決的
現在我的問題來了
我不懂是想太多還是怎樣
問題在我的角度來看根本就不是一個問題
可是站在第三者的角度
這個的確是一種問題
矛盾就在這裡
到底要堅信自己的看法
還是要試著研究別人的角度呢???
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:09 PM
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SkY-ed by MC Jam at 9:39 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 9:09 PM
如果生命能夠常轉彎
或許死去的人不會那麼多
如果生命能夠常轉彎
或許煩惱的人會大大減少
只是人生又有幾何可以讓你轉彎呢?
坎坷的人生如果不充滿障礙
人的成熟度就不會因為世界的發展而提升
可是如果讓我選擇
我寧可選擇不轉彎
因為我堅持自己的一切
只是堅持的當時
也為自己的付出而嘆息
嘆息的不是因為付出太多
嘆息是因為害怕得到的結果不是想像中那樣
就像現在的張力耀
選擇專注在事業上
可是遇到了一段未知數的愛情
也漸漸的慢慢付出所有
以前的堅持好像都不見了
失去重心
找不回自己了
可是一路走來
出現了幾個轉彎點
可是張力耀選擇直直走下去
因為張力耀相信
只要堅持
終點一定有自己要的東西
問題來了
我能走到終點嗎?
馬兒會來陪伴我走過這一段路嗎???
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 9:17 PM
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SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:43 PM
just show this from one of my friend's msn personal message.
it is something in my heart too.
"其实很多女孩子都不知道虽然男人嘴上说不在乎你跟别的男人交谈,可每当有陌生男人和你接触时 ,他总会偷偷地将眉毛紧锁,那是因为他在乎你……"
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:42 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:33 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:28 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:20 PM
i donnu what decision i can make
i donnu what result i will get
i donnu whether this will become posible or not
i donnu whether this is the right way or not
i am totally lost in somewhere else
which look familiar to me
but actually i donnu where is it
OMG...
cant scream for SOS,
cant cool down myself,
cant even think how to solve this things.
Never think that i will fall in this situation
Never think that i can be so silly at all
Never think about whether is this a trap or what
Never think about whether is this worth to do or not
again
instinct pointed me to this
is neither a choice nor an option
it sound like compulsory to do
but the main problem is,
i am stucked half way,
influenced by myself
influenced by enviroment
no matter how good am i
no matter how i show out myself
it look like i am going to be a failure again
it sound like i am being a stupid fool again
but just donnu why
i am willing to do
although it might not successful
although the outcome will be zero
the only wish is
i get something back at last
i get what i hope to get
i hope that "someone" understand me.
That's all.
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:02 PM
i donnu whether there will be a chance or not,
but what i think i should give a try,
although instinct told me that i am a failure this time,
just donnu why i wanna keep a try.
i have a bet,
not only with myself,
with everything i have, and i wish to have
i am SHOWING HAND.
(it sounds like i am playing poker now)
When the time will come?
i don't want to think bout it.
Just know that i am afraid to see what i dont hope to see.
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:56 PM
我多么想SEAN讲的那句话是事实
而不是幻想而已
i Hope that what Sean said is a truth in real life.
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 4:04 AM
I am spending the whole day
doing the things i hope i can do.
There is another target to archieve
towards the target-ING.
miss the time a lot.
Hope timeframe can reverse back,
and freeze.
My dream and my goal,
I AM COMING...
please wait me..
i will show you everything.
Is there a chance for me??
hmmm.....
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 3:00 AM
SELAMAT HARI RAYA PUASA kepada suma Malaysian yang menyambut.
Happy Hari Raya to all the Malaysian who celebrate it.
恭賀馬來西亞同胞開齊節快樂~!!!
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 1:43 AM
不同世界 ---> 路人甲 ---> 相遇 ---> 朋友 ---> 好朋友? ---> 知己? ---> 情侶??
Different World ---> Pass-by ---> Meet up ---> Friend ---> Best Friend? ---> Buddy? ---> Couple??
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 1:38 AM
我希望年齡不是咱們的絆腳石
我希望距離將把我們拉近
我希望現在每時每刻我可以擁護你
我希望你看得到我的誠意
我希望你可以接受我可以克服的難關
你呢?
I hope that age is not a problem for us.
I hope that distance will pull us nearer.
I hope that I can be with you all the time.
I hope that you can feel my sincere.
I hope that you can accept the problem which I can handle it.
How about you?
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:20 PM
Lyrics
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me
Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh its what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.
Oh oh
OOOoohhhh
Oh oh
Ooooooohhhhh
Oh Oh
OOOoohhhh
OOOOooohhhhh
Oh Oh
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:15 PM
Ladies and Gentleman, Tuan-tuan dan puan puan sekaian,
First of all, i would like to thanks to all the people who send their greetings to me, no matter through SMS, Friendster, MSN, Phone Call. Thanks a million because of still remember my birthday. Haha, finally my turn to say goodbye to the "1" world, and say hi to the "2" generation. Does it sound older?? Erm...let me think about it.
By the way, list down some of the people i want to thanks..
- Ping Ping Auntie
- Daddy and Mummy
- Brother
- Justin and wife XD
- Meifen and husband XD
- Seok Yong
- Thomas
- Mann Mann
- Likeat
- Tracy
- Zoe Lim Ai Hooi
- Phoebe
- Wei Yung
- Clarance
- Ed @ Manyin (i donnu when these two fellow was combined)
- QQBelut Manyin
- LiJing
- Zoe Beh a.k.a Doraemon =P
This year was quite a special birthday for me. Guess wat, my mum call me at that nite, and i think she purposely pass the phone to my dad. And is the first time i heard my dad greet me Happy Birthday. Oh my god...the feel was....undescribable...lolz..abit GELi...hahaha
Ok...i need to have a good rest..so again, Thanks for those who greeting me on my birthday. Love you guys a lotz...
Thanks.
Regards,
Jameson Chong
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:11 PM
Just a short and fast post..
thx to those to greet me for birthday
thx for still rmb me..
love u guys
(will list out who are they when i back to kl)
now i am having a trip in kuantan,
a working trip..
will back on monday morning..
hehhe...
^_^
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:05 PM
I just want to say,
i am going to disappear myself again.
I am going to Kuantan tomorrow.
I am going to celebrate my birthday in Kuantan again.
since last year i was celebrating in the same place.
But last year was going for a trip.
this year i am going for work =.=
sad...
felt like not really willing to go..
but have to go too...
nvm..is ok..
so anyone who miss me..
call me XD
hahaha...
all the best to me...
=X
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:11 PM
賞月
不是我常做的事
月餅
不是我愛吃的食物
燈籠
不是我會玩的玩具
這樣
中秋節對我意義何在呢?
不懂多少年了
我的中秋節沒有和家人一起度過
中秋節的晚上
我頂多會和爸媽聊一下電話就算了
因為我不喜歡和老人家聊電話
哈哈
老媽今天早上還特地打電話來
叫我明天去約我那個哥哥吃飯
我只回答老媽一句話
她就無法回覆了
"如果我明天不用工作,我或許會考慮."
對嘛~
畢竟她大兒子是哥哥
怎麼可能要小兒子去約哥哥吃飯
不可能的大事來得
哈哈,
畢竟張力耀到頭來就是四個字形容
- 重色輕友 -
XD
開玩笑啦~
說真的,
我並不愛應酬自己家人
因為聊的話題都是我不想講的話
而且來來去去都是一成不變
"最近怎樣啊?做工怎樣啊?"
"不要亂亂花錢啊,錢難賺啊!"
最恐怖的是
如果遇到某些親戚(最好不要是那種幾百年不見面一次的那種)
第一句話 = "哇,那是看你才小小個,現在已經那麼大了..."
每聽到這句話,
我的額頭頓時出現超過三條直直的粗線
=.=|||
算了吧
今年中秋命中注定一個人度過
甚至連生日也應該如此 (快到了)
反正我現在不屬於任何一派
我的生命中
好像從來只有一次生日會
就是去年其他十一金釵幫我慶祝的
只是那個已經成為過去了
往事只能回味
在這裡
祝賀大家
身體健康
萬事如意
大家記得
祝賀我
生日快樂
身體健康
財源廣進
事事順利
福壽安康
不懂還有甚麼
記得再講吧
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 12:23 AM
Just want to share with you guys somethings
I have been located in Cineleisure for event,
is a online game launching
i forget what the game name,
(because is too long to remember it),
but its ambassadors are Lin Yu Zhong and Jin Sha.
They were there on Saturday noon time,
to officially launch the event.
here is one of the video,
which my fren take my phone and record it.
is abit shakey...hahhaa...
Just want to share with you..
Jin Sha is beautiful + Cute + Pretty
oh my gosh...
hahaha
this is the original MV -
Reborn - Lin Yu Zhong / JinSha
复活 - 林宇中 / 金莎
check this out...~
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:27 PM
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SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:23 PM
giving out a piece of nothing,
i realize my life start to change.
This is the first OFFICIAL rest day,
since i start to work.
Guess what,
as usual..i m boring with HOLIDAY.
XD
i know some of you will say:
"what the fxxk, have holiday oso complain."
but this is Jameson Chong.
i prefer my life full with things to do,
but sometimes i will complain that i am tired,
when you give me a chance to rest,
i will complain that i m boring.
this is what we call 犯賤 in chinese
in english, u can say is FXXKER..
but pls don put that word on me..
haha...
=P
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:11 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:11 PM
i always got a question in my mind..
why i always get in bad mood?
today i started to realize that,
i am getting bad mood always.
is just becoz i always having bad luck,
maybe.
since the start of this week,
i am suffering with a lotz of unlucky matters.
i am asking myself why,
but i cant ans it.
i never met something bad happen continuous,
it happens again and again and again and again
just in 3 days time.
What should i do about this?
someone willing to let me punch arr?? XD
maybe Lijing willin..
but i am afraid she will punch me back...
and i am the one masuk hospital...
hahhaa...
=P
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:04 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:45 PM
"我迷失了自己...愛情事業友情..我都屬於被動狀態...
我完全捉摸不到定點...到底何時張力耀才能清醒呢?
帝國區二代...你知道嗎? 我快要看不見自己了..
因為眼睛已被帝國區二代給遮住了.."
為甚麼我會用這句話開始?
有我MSN的人相信都應該會看到這句話
因為這真是我的PM
我之所以會放上來
是因為LJ說她懶惰去明白
所以我就上來解釋囉
你看,
LJ 我對你多好 XD
LJ,
我最近心情不是很好
所以很常找你聊天
(就是不懂為甚麼心情不好找你聊天一定沒事的,
你是神嗎?? =X )
從生病開始,
我就覺得自己完全不在該有的生活狀態
我完全沒有辦法控制自己的想法
無倫做甚麼事情都不是很順心
甚至在事業上,
我也到了一個瓶頸
綁死自己,然後強迫自己到一個角落頭痛苦的活下去
即使到現在,
我還是無法突破瓶頸
然後在家庭上,
我突然發覺我和家人的溝通越來越少了
我老媽好幾次打電話來
我竟然可以沒有時間接電話,
或者沒有時間多聊幾句
我開始覺得,
我在事業上的衝勁,
我的家人已經慢慢從我的心里消失了
再來是友情
很多人都懂張力耀永遠將友情放在第一位
可是現在我竟然可以淪落到討厭幾位應該屬於是朋友的人
這裡裡面有滿多的插曲,
也很難一一解釋
只是我開始慢慢變了
對於一些友情,
我開始放淡了
我不再寄託那麼多的感情在這些友誼
因為我覺得我不能在承受那種無謂的評倫,要求,責罵
我根本無需要去介懷他們的感受
因為我了解到"我就是我"的道理
最後來到了愛情
LJ 我喜歡上你了..你完蛋了...
哈哈..開玩笑罷了..
LJ, 記得甚麼是帝國區嗎?
如果你記得,
你也應該記得我跟你講過的2nd generation..
XD
好了
我要去洗白白了
LJ,
看完了 MSN 我
不過可能我已經進入你的夢鄉了
哈哈...
總結:
LJ,你明白我要表達的東西嗎?
我的SUMMARY是不是很好咧
**I LOST MYSELF**
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:19 PM
Guess what,
i am blogging inside a cybercafe in SS2,
i just finished work from event in 1u.
Today might not be a lucky day for me,
but i cant say myself unlucky.
is just not so many luck be with me.
hehehe...
y i say so?
ask me in personal,
i might let you know
=P
btw,
i am getting better recover from my sick.
although i still have a bit sore throat and coughin
but hope that it will become better and recover soon.
because i don wan Lijing to worry about me.
XD
Lijing, touch or not?? XD
hahaha...
just a joke.
tell u what,
even my parents also donnu i am sicked..
i have a habit,
beside one of the doctor in my hometown,
i seldom go to see doctor when i m sicked,
what i do is just usually take some medic from house,
and just rest
but i donnu why i just don wan to see doctor.
someone say that i am weird...
ya..i am
i never say i am a very normal ppl..
i am very weird in my attitude,
i am very weird in my characteristic,
i am very weird in my everything.
XD
share something with you guys next time,
is about something related to me and around me.
chiaoz ady
byebye,
cybercafe... XD
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:23 PM
"
"
I am not speechless...
the reason why is so much blank..
is because i lost of my voice..
i cant talk much >.<
and my sick is getting worse..
what can i do about this?
maybe nth...
btw...
i am here is to thanks everyone who care about me when i was sicked
especially to Lijing...
sms and leave msg for me..
thanks Lijing...
haha...
i felt happy to see all your msg...
cum cum cum..
sms me always...XD
hahaha...
ok..i am going to take my bath and have a good rest..
but have to wash clothes as well =.=
haha...
chiaoz..
anything just drop a msg, or sms me, or call me..
but not for the purpose to hear my LOST VOICE (begging for no..plsss XD)
hehe...
chiaoz...
^^
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:27 PM
ah Hemmmmm....
i am having a sore throat
and fever
ya, is now!
but it started since yesterday.
T_T
cant talk too much,
but how m i going to work
btw,
i still work on today..
Sick wont affect me wat...
hehehe....
gambateh lurr...
myself..
XD
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:07 PM
haha...
first of all,
i need to apologize,
regarding to late posting of what's happen on me in Mentakab
Actually this morning i am thinking to write this in chinese,
but donnu why when i come back to home,
i feel like wanna write english.
is a long time i never post out a chinese blog ady.
I know...
hehe
I called the Mentakab trip as a Road Trip.
To be honest,
i get to use to my job when i was assigned to Mentakab.
I built my confindence from there.
I built my strength from there.
I get to know what's my weak from there as well.
And and and,
the most important thing is,
i started to get closed with my team members,
especially my leader.
haha..
she won't read this blog,
so is ok for me to critic her...
wakakka...
just a joke =P
by the way,
there is one thing i think is quite funny happen.
During almost last of thr first day PC Fair,
is a friday,
one of our competitor reseller
(actually none of competition feeling to us at all XD).
try to quarrel with my another leader.
Reason i cant tell it here..
(so keep it as secret,
if you wan to know the secret,
watch Jay Chou's new movie - SECRET XD XD)
but what make me think funny is,
the competitor reseller acted like a child,
not even a child,
is a BABY. ( or you can say it as a BABI ^^)
Guess what he did,
he did something that we only do it during our primary school,
or maybe early of secondary school >.<
he went and pour water on my another leader's head (who is his quarrel target).
Oh my gosh,
imagine a person i think more than 40 (XD)
acted like a child,
never think before he did things,
This is what we called idiot as well...
hahaha
but hor, when my manager arrived in front of him,
he started to become fear
why? try to guess it loo...
then i never saw him again in the next two days.
Oh ya, beside this,
i saw something Lijing very like...
haha...
LiJing, i tot u will post it in ur blog..
hahaha...
sorry ya for the late posting
finally,
before i end and go to take my bath
i would like to say sorry to :
1) Likeat - sorry for cant accompany u chat. i know i did promise u in sdk. But really sorry coz this few days really busy with my works.
2) Lijing - Sorry for cant find u chat, but u did actually not on9 rite? =.= donnu what for i am saying sorry to you again..haha
3) MannMann - Sorry for not disturbing u this few days. I let you have too much good time ady. You wait laa...the days is coming back...kekeke
chiaoz 1st...bath and zzzz
^^
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:45 PM
hoho...
I'm back..
I'm back from Pahang..
I'm back from Mentakab, pahang
haha...
i was out-stationed to Mentakab PC Fair this week.
quite enjoying the trip,
until me and my colleague not willing to come back here.
There are a lotz of things happen in this week,
but i cant rmb them now,
maybe too old ady..
the brain cant turn faster..
donnu can put in a TURBO and make it faster tak?? XD
hehe...
let me have a good rest 1st
and will story out whats happen to me...
^^
Good nite at 5pm =P
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 4:38 PM
Something happen funny today.
Until today only i know that,
supporting Liverpool is not a wrong choice.
Why i say so?
Today i am assigned to PC Fair,
and i have signed up one of the customers.
Guess the reason he is signing with me.
Ya,
He also a Liverpool fans.
One thing he said that make me salute.
"Because of Liverpool, I choose to sign up"
wow...
I am shocked + excited when i heard this,
I am wondering whether he is joking or not,
but he really signed up the form.
And we talk a lot bout Liverpool.
He asked me that when Robbie Fowler first left liverpool,
am i being sad?
haha...
But i tell him that i was supporting Michael Owen that time.
The most funny thing is,
he called me Owen when we finsihed sign up the things,
IN FRONT OF HIS WIFE.
Oh my gosh,
I din expected that Supporting liverpool can bring me this kind of benefits.
haha...cool man~
I am motivated now.
My parents actually are trying to persuade me to change my job,
and some of my friends as well,
but sorry laa...
Now i am motivated by some reasons,
So i will choose to stay at the current situation,
although sometimes i might get tired...
nevermind, is ok for me..
I am still young what...
haha....
my age still starting with "1"
kakakaka...
XD
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:06 PM
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:20 PM
Actually i plan to blog since days ago,
but life is making me busy,
so until today,
i am abit free,
so i decided that is time for me to blog again.
I have started my works for 4days,
everyday is quite a tiring day,
except for today.
I am wondering that why i will choose a job like this,
haha,
tell you guys what,
I started for 4 days,
i enjoyed my 4 days.
So i din see any reasons that i should wonder.
As what my colleague and bosses always say.
the more hardworking you are, the more you will get.
And a lotz of things are motivating me to actually be hardworking,
but i donnu how to describe it here.
Oh ya,
did anyone knows what is the Zone of Empire?
If you have read my previous WRETCH blog,
i think u get know about this.
My working place is another Zone of Empire.
OK la,
until here i am abit speechless,
my brain is STUCKED,
haha...
XD
so everyone,
Thanks for caring me,
thanks for supporting me,
thanks for crapping with me..
Jom,
chiaozzzzzzz
(Sorry, i am not going to sleep now, OK?!)
(is only 7.16pm in Malaysia. What for???)
=P
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 7:05 PM
Do everyone know I am a Streamyx Agent?
haha...Now I am telling you that I am!
Ya..I know sometimes their services is sucks
But they are the cheapest and best in town.
Now,
there are some promotion offered:
!! Merdeka Bash !!
1Mbps @ RM77 per month Free Modem.
Contractual for 24 months.
Validity 1/8/2007 - 30/9/2007
hehe...
Anyone who is interested,
kindly email me in regencysky@gmail.com
For more information,
log on to http://www.freewebs.com/regencysky
or maybe you can call me.
^^
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 8:14 PM
Life is kinda boring.
I mean holiday life.
I remember i used to enjoy my holiday.
But that is years ago.
Maybe 5 years ago.
Now for me.
Holiday in my hometown is nothing.
No.
Is something that i don't hope to happen.
But sometimes when i think about friends here.
I wished i could stay here.
How poor is my life.
Not to the left but not to the right too.
Standing in the middle line.
But watching nothing.
I spent my day here without anything but just hanging out.
The only place i go always is friend's cyber cafe.
Playing game with him.
And with his + my friends.
By the way.
I am going back soon.
To the lovely town.
Facing the busy life.
Ya.
I like busy life.
Ya.
I am crapping now!!!
CRAP rules my life.
XD
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 10:48 PM
張力耀發現
原來張力耀當了很久的笨蛋
可是依然矇喳喳的過生活
回到來家鄉
這次我遇到了很多人
尤其是舊的情人或愛人
讓我突然回憶起以前的點點滴滴
你們相信嗎?
張力耀曾經是一個心甘情願為女人付出的人
可是因為幾次的傷害
流過血和淚
我發誓絕不為女人再次付出男人淚和一滴血.
我做到了
只是昨晚和一個前女友聊天時
突然覺得自己像一個傻瓜
那通電話我講了兩個小時二十九分鐘四十九秒
用了我馬幣二十一元
打這通電話的用意其實是想勸告加安慰她
可是我講了甚麼都沒有用
結果剛剛跟我說沒有勇氣去承擔這一切
我頓時覺得自己像笨蛋
浪費了那麼多精神和金錢
結果被告知的結果是如此白痴
我只有一個念頭
我昨晚浪費的精神是白費的
自己其實是一個傻瓜
根本就不應該插手她的事情
畢竟是她自己要活在她的夢幻世界里
干麼我要多管閒事呢
算了吧
張力耀
在人的眼里
可能我是人太好了
被當作笨蛋兼傻瓜利用
果然義字當頭是會被利用的
哈哈
天真的張力耀
醒來吧~~!!!
嘻嘻...
我已經醒來了,
我現在在打部落格啊
XD
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:47 PM
Recently I am facing some personal problems. I tried to analyse them to make it as simple as they can be. But finally i found that is not easy to persuade myself to choose the only option i have.
Further up my studies is one of the main problems i faced recently. I know that my mum hope that i can continue my degree. But my dad said that he is not able to put me up to the twinning programme which require a year in local and another year in Austrlia, and cost around RM150,000 for this two years (estimated RM50,000 for the year in local and RM100,000 for the year in Australia). So he "offer" me an option - finish my degree in local which only cost him less than RM80,000.
I asked myself a lot of times, should i accept this offer? I know that local degree at least is better than a diploma. But this is not what i want since i have a mind to study Diploma in Mass Communication. I really hope that i can go oversea and explore how oversea countries operate their broadcasting system. I really hope that my future will be in TV station. But hope is not the final result we can see.
Guess what, i choose not to continue my degree in local, and since my parents unable to let me out to oversea, i choose to work. I found a job nearby KLCC. It actually not really related to Mass Comm, but as LiJing told me last night, i am looking for a job to earn some money first, but not to settle down my future now. So i just try to gain some experience from this job first, and apply what i learn into my future.
I might continue study in my future. Who can say i won't. Even myself cant make a decision about this. So currently, i just fill up my life with some social communication skills. I hope that i did not make a wrong decision.
Oh ya, I never regret about the decisions i made before. ^_^
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:04 PM
Since I am back to my hometown and got nothing to do besides sleep, eat, play and online, I made a decision that I might want to build up my blog by changing some of the elements:
1. adding a counter stat into it
- reason for adding this is to satisfy myself by monitoring the number changing one by one.
2. adding a shout-out box
- reason for adding is because i miss the mIRC-style chatting but i am lazy to use mIRC.
3. changing my blogging style
- the reason for changing style is because i am using Chinese to blog, but some of my friends complained that they can't understand Chinese. So to be fair... Ooops..no, to be convenience for them, i decided to blog in both language. Mixture style of this blog is what I want to try. But with my poor English, please, please don't expect i can type with perfect english here. I will assume that you guys know the meaning of BROKEN LANGUAGE. XD Oh ya, this is a way to improve my English too.
Hope everyone continue enjoy here. Anyone who want to exchange blog address, kindly drop me a message in MSN, Friendster or Email.
Let us begin to rock this BuLoG, JC-SkY Series.
Cheers.
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 12:56 PM
很悶很悶
過了幾個悶的日子
真的不知道有時候回來到底為了甚麼
為了見一見自己的朋友?
還是為了休息一下,離開那城市的壓力?
幸好不至於悶到每天只在家看戲發呆
可是想起那鬱悶的晚上
望的不是那一片無際的天空
望的也不是那永遠數不清的星星
而是抬頭望到的是一盞燈,加上幾塊天花板
低頭望的是幾片地磚,偶爾地磚上有幾條裂痕
望前方是兩個15吋的屏幕
一個大的,一個薄的
一個佔了桌子很大的位子,一個連桌子都沒碰到的
一個用塑膠盤承住,一個是被主機板和鍵盤連接在一起
一個是關著的,一個是開著的
啊~
兩個屏幕的啟示:
同樣的東西,可以有很多不同的介面
就是看要從那裡去看
用甚麼時代的眼光去看
用怎麼樣的心情去對待
就會產生不一樣的東西
時代慢慢在進步了
身為年輕人的我
現在是與時並進
跟著潮流時尚的步伐前進
慢慢的挖掘屬於自己的潮流時尚
慢慢的我要告訴別人我不一樣
暫時我沒有想過要甚麼屬於自己品牌之類的想法
因為我覺得如果自己沒有走在自己一條道路上
即使走在自己的道路上,可是沒有在那條路上穩定腳步
我覺得擁有那種想法或許到最後,甚至肯定
那會是一種荒唐
只要闖出自己的一番風格,那就是自己的品牌了
或許不是每個人都是有那麼的想法
也沒有說想對那些有這種想法的人潑冷水
只不過現在我的確是那麼想
這次回來這裡除了悶
其實我想了很多東西
想了現在所擁有的
想了未來即將有的
想了自己前面的一道路
一條坎坷不平的路
我覺得我的人生需要冒險
需要經過磨練
所以我決定了
回去吉隆坡
我要全力以赴我的工作
爭取我要的經驗
顯示出我有的本能
發揮我應有的潛能
我的人生...
我來也~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
期待當中.....
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:55 PM
AK5162
這是蝦咪?
嘻嘻
這是我現在在等待廣播器呼叫的號碼
因為它是我的班機編號
2007年7月12日 下午1時11分XX秒
也就是現在
我人在吉隆坡國際廉價機場
簡稱LCCT的P9出境處前面
坐著
原來機場已經安裝了無線上網
讓遊客在等待飛機的同時
可以上網解悶
可是網絡速度是難以形容
MSN上不到
就連上這個天地
也許要等上好幾分鐘
可以媲美伯樂學院的網絡
哈哈
好久沒用過不能上MSN兼速度超慢的網絡了
**短暂的来回奔跑
不曾解开的背包
我参与的人生太潦草
快乐常在门外绕
太多陌生的夜晚让我困扰**
(摘自於林俊傑-不流淚的機場)
每次來到機場
就讓我想起久違的家里
那溫暖的家
我好久沒踏入了
慢慢的
我逐漸習慣了原本陌生地帶的一切
不再像這個旅程的開端
讓我感覺恐懼害怕
我已征服了這裡的一切
來到了另外一段該走的道路
沒有人知道前面的路有多坎坷
只能說即使多難行走的前面
我相信一定會有一段是鋪上了瀝青的道路
順暢無比
好了
我該時候收拾電腦
準備上飛機了
久違了,山打根
~!!~
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 1:05 PM
我告訴你們
今天我的壓力好像不見了
我好像終於找到一個可以解除我的壓力方法
但這個方法幾乎是一門偏方
我懂得開始享受現有的一切
不懂為甚麼
今天去剪了一個我這一年內最短的頭髮
為了找到工作
唯有犧牲自己寶貴珍貴的頭髮
可是今天的犧牲我卻突然樂意的很
為甚麼?
哈哈
因為有美女幫我洗頭髮 XD
屁啦!!不是啦!! 亂講...
今天發現原來頭部按摩可以讓我消除壓力
可能真的是幫洗頭髮的那個人功夫到家
我很享受那個moment
洗完頭髮後
整個人就變的輕鬆無比
加上剪短了頭髮
比較涼爽
所以變成有一種很"輕"的感覺
現在整個人開始慢慢輕鬆起來
只希望能夠儘快找到一份工作
安定自己現在的生活
輕輕鬆鬆活下去
啊~~
忘了...
我要再去剪頭髮...剃光
哈哈..開玩笑的
我不敢咧
只是很想再去按摩頭部
嘻嘻
不要讓我爸媽看到這篇東西
不然他們準氣的七孔噴血
=P
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 3:43 PM
昨晚發了一場奇怪的夢
令我回想起一些往事
有快樂的
也有不快樂的
有滿足的
也有遺憾的
我在想
是不是真的人生有了遺憾才會完美
那場夢讓我回想到以前的滿足與遺憾
無倫是我的童年,親情,友情,或者是愛情
童年 - 我想起了一些自己做的事情
突然覺得自己很傻
還會不停問自己
為甚麼以前會發生那種事情
親情 - 看到了自己以往對待家人的態度
突然有一種感覺
我以後的子子孫孫會不會用回同樣的態度對待我
友情 - 我可以為朋友付出那麼多
可是為甚麼真心的朋友卻沒幾個
真真的朋友我可以用兩個手掌的手指數完
或甚至一個手掌
愛情 - 曾經一段很穩固的愛情擺在自己的面前
得到了卻沒有好好珍惜
反而因為一些無謂的爭吵
讓自己遺失掉了一個愛
回想起來
原來自己已經逐漸的踏入成熟的階段
人老了
或許^^
透過這場夢
我覺得自己開始成為了無腳的小鳥
很想飛
可是飛不得
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 11:23 PM
**我受够了等待,
你所谓的安排
到底多久多久才来
你总是要我乖,
慢慢计划将来
我想依赖却你都不在
应该开心的地带
你给的全是空白**
這是周傑倫-倒帶的第一段歌詞
其實很想問問老天爺
我何時才能恢復好運的時期
我了解每個人都必須經過這種所謂的"三衰六旺"
可是也不必讓我在這個時候衰起來吧
現在只是想全心全意找到一份工作
不必讓家人操心
也想讓自己放下一個心理的包袱
我的確很想依賴老天爺的好運
可是我得到的暫時還是空白
希望好運會很快回來我身邊
借用剛才朋友講的一句話 -
"有遺憾的人生才是十全十美的"
我的人生太多遺憾了吧
那應該很完美囉~~^^
(偷笑了)
Life is such a cracking road
生命就是如此坎坷不平
人生的路途遙遠的很
我不應該為了那麼一點點小事
為自己帶來了那麼多的壓力
我做到嗎?
選擇A - 我做到的
選擇B - 我做不到的
選擇C - 我也不知道咧
SkY-ed by MC Jam at 1:48 AM